Thursday, February 22, 2007

I don't know if my heart is breaking or soaring...


I don't know if my heart is breaking or soaring...

Our beloved youngest, a sophomore in high school, is an extraordinary student (and a lovely, generous person, if I may say so). God wired her brain differently than anyone else I've ever known well. She actually doesn't study all that much.

She took the PSATs as a test run last fall, without one minutes' prep. And scored in the top 1/2 of 1% of all test-takers nationwide. The scores were published in early January, and our lives haven't been the same.

In the last six weeks, we've been contacted by more than 40 colleges and universities from around the country. Columbia, Brown, Caltech, Northwestern, U of Chicago, Duke, Tulane, Emory, Rice, Washington & Lee.

The "Little Ivies": Williams, Amherst, Swarthmore. The "Womens' Ivies": Smith, Bryn Mawr, Barnard, Wellesley. And public universities: Universities of Washington, Illinois, Florida, Delaware.

Stanford and UCLA invited her to attend classes this summer on their campuses. She was asked to participate in the national Junior Statesman program at Yale, Princeton and Georgetown.

We're proud. We're happy. And we're overwhelmed and unprepared, and confused at every turn. We had NO idea to expect such a rush; we thought that was reserved for athletes.
And truthfully, it feels alien that all this fuss is about a very normal someone we live with everyday.
I suppose I've always secretly hoped she'd attend my alma mater, UCLA (pictured above.) And she still might, I suppose. But the process seems to have a Life of its own.

I have no idea if my heart is breaking or soaring. Our daughter is growing... almost grown up, and will leave our cozy nest soon for a future unimaginably bright and promising.
And possibly far from home.

This I do know: we are grateful to God for her, as well as the opportunities he is offering her to make a difference in His name.

And I need to trust His leading.
Now.

Monday, February 12, 2007

A Talented Legend


We watched most of the Grammy Awards last night.

I'm a longtime fan of the joyfully soaring artistry of the Dixie Chicks. And it was delightful to see my lifelong heroine, Joan Baez, introduce these three talented women who fought and worked to be seriously regarded.

I rejoice in their rebellious "Not Ready to Make Nice," because, as a woman, I've often also not been ready to make nice on someone else's cue. I GET it.

Mary J. Blige was a musical vision. If only she and Bono had sung "One"...

But my favorite of the night was by a musician I'd never previously heard of: R & B singer/composer John Legend. His soul-deep, gospel-tinged music touched my heart.

Today, I downloaded his new CD, "Once Again," and I can't get his haunting "Coming Home" out of my mind. The lyrics tell of the desperate desire of a young soldier to someday come home again. Legend's voice poignantly tells of the solider's pain and weariness.

I cried when I first heard it today. The Iraq War, and all its immorality, tragedy and anguish, hangs heavy on my heart, as it does for our country.

I urge... listen, really listen, to John Legend's "Coming Home."


Here are the lyrics:

A father waits upon a son
A mother prays for his return
I just called to see
If you still have a place for me
We know that like took us apart
But you're still within my heart
I go to sleep and feel your spirit next to me
I'll make it home again
I pray you'll fall in love again
Just say you'll entertain the possibility
I learned enough from my mistakes
Learned from all I didn't say
Won't you wait for me

It may be long to get me there
It feels like I've been everywhere
But someday I'll be coming home
Round and round the world will spin
Oh, the circle never ends
So you know that I'll be coming home

We fight to stay alive
But somebody's got to die
It's so strange to me
A new year, a new enemy
Another soldier gone to war
Another story told before
Now it's told again
It seems the wars will never end
But we'll make it home again
Back where we belong again
We're holding on to when
We used to dare to dream
We pray we live to see
Another day in history
Yes we still believe

It may be long to get me there
It feels like I've been everywhere
But someday I'll be coming home
Round and round the world will spin
Oh, the circle never ends
So you know that I'll be coming home

I'm coming, I'm coming, I'm coming?
You know that I'll be coming home
It may be long to get me there
It feels like I've been everywhere
But someday I'll be coming home
Round and round the world will spin
Oh, the circle never ends
So you know that I'll be coming home

John Legend Lyrics


Wednesday, January 24, 2007

My Reading Table and Email Bible Study

Our church has begun sending a delightful series of email Bible studies (E-Dibbs.org) , in which I can opt for a 10-minute pastoral talking head (I don't mean that disrespectfully. It's just a good description.) or the text version of the pastor's prayers and teachings.

I'm enjoying this new form of Bible study, and grateful for this refreshing break in my work day to focus on God's Word.

Truth is... my plate is so full these busy days, that I'm not reading my Bible daily.


And my reading list only seems to grow longer... which brings me to my periodic reading table confession.

On My Reading Table
At January 24, 2007
In Process:
"The Audacity of Hope" by Sen. Barack Obama - A surprisingly centrist leader, empathetic person and stunningly good writer
"The Martha Rules " by Martha Stewart - This woman can do (almost) no wrong in my book. I admire her emphasis on craftmanship and quality.
"Joie De Vivre - Simple French Style for Everyday Living" by Robert Arbor - Reading a few pages of this beautiful book is like taking a soothing armchair vacation. I plan to take months to savor it, and then start over again.
To Be Read:
"The Left Hand of God " by Rabbi Michael Lerner
"The Myths of Free Trade" by Sen. Sherrod Brown of Ohio
"Take This Job and Ship It - How Corporate Greed and Brain-Dead Politics Are Selling Out America" by Sen. Byron Dorgan of North Dakota
"War on the Middle Class" by Lou Dobbs of CNN

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Annual Accountability Moment, 2006

Ok... here it is: my 3rd annual New Year's Accountability Moment.

And I'm thrilled this year. I measured up, so to speak. To quote the late James Brown, "I feel good..."

Annual Miles Logged on Trusty Stationary Bike
2006 - 645.5
2005 - 564.5
2004 - 562.0
Literally, I can't imagine what my health or weight would be without all that exercise. Or I don't dare to imagine, given my family history of heart attacks, strokes and diabetes... of which I've experienced none.
My advice: if you hate exercise, like me, find ways to make it fun. It could be a matter of life or... well, not life here.
Happy New Year, and God bless!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas Dinner Menu, 2006


By popular demand (two family members), the following is the Christmas Day dinner menu at our home in two days.

The fare has a retro, mid-20th century theme, and pays homage to dishes served by my great-aunts and my mother during the 1950s and 1960s., but with 21st century touches.

A Christmas gift from me to my family is a delicious meal, lovingly dreamed and crafted.


Merry Christmas!


A whole ham, pineapple-mustard glaze


Classic green bean casserole (fresh , organic green beans, not canned)


Cauliflower au gratin


Carrots in cinnamon-butter sauce


Melons


Whole grain rolls, butter


Fresh peach pie, double-crust


Vanilla bean ice cream, Dreyers' Grand


California chardonnay, apple cider

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Motherhood and Christmas


For the first time ever, we spent Christmas away from home last year. We had a delightful and cozy time, visiting our daughter and son-in-law in their lovely Oregon home. My brother and his wife live nearby, on the Oregon-Washington border, and they joined us for a festive Christmas dinner.

We didn't celebrate Christmas with our two sons, daughter-in-law and six month old granddaughter last year, though, until we returned later that week
.
Truthfully, we were fine with that... but to our secret surprise, we were missed. Both Ryan, now 28, and Kevin, now 23, said it wasn't quite the same for them.

We're home this year, and, of course, we're hosting the family Christmas dinner. Trisha and Nino will remain in Oregon, and we'll miss their presence.

But I admit... I've deeply loved hearing from our sons how they're looking forward to celebrating the holiday at home with us.

Kevin, buried deep in his studies, work and head-over-heels for girlfriend Tessa, emailed me yesterday just to say he can't wait for Christmas here. And hard-working Ryan, husband and doting father, told me by phone last night that he and his family are excited about being here for the holiday.

I am many things... wife, sister, daughter, friend, neighbor, not to mention writer, community volunteer, activist, business woman.

But at my essence, I am a mother (and grandmother). I love our children. I pray for them daily, and they're always with me.
I'm feeling kind of special... and appreciated... that they long to celebrate the holidays with us.
That's the only gift I need this Christmas!
(Although... please ask me about my Amazon wish list. :) I have lots of wants...)

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Victory!



Victory

has

never,

ever

been

sweeter!

(photo by Robert Laberge / Getty Images)